My only revenge…

There’s a button on one of the games I

play that says – Give up! – not a question,

but an exclamation, a taunt; it appears

with great regularity and never offers an

option; the loss is certain though the final

move hasn’t been made; at first I would

quickly tap the button and Give up! so I

could race back to another start certain

it would be different next time; then I

began to linger over that end, staring

at the inevitable and wondering how

I wound up here, again, certain I’d

played it differently this time but

obviously hadn’t; now I stare at the

blinking Give up! and let it go on and

on, refusing to capitulate to my loss,

to the inevitable, tired, frustrated, not

ready to try again; it’s my only revenge.